I feel like I can't take it anymore. I know that I did something wrong by abusing the "liberty" but it isn't much of a liberty!
Argh! After all those screaming and hitting, I went to the kitchen straightaway and took the knife. I just wanted to slit my wrist and wanted the external pain to drain away the inside. But it can't. Two drops of blood slid off my hand. It wasn't a deep cut. It wasn't that painful. At that moment, all the strength drained away from my legs and I collapsed to the ground.
How can they do that to me? I mean, I can stop doing that but how can they say that to me and force me to do it?? And I'm supposed to "change" and fake a smile everyday from now on whenever I look at them. OMG!!
I want to cry but the tears just can't come out anymore. I feel empty and hollow inside. I really don't know what to do anymore. And THEM being in their position, how can they say such horrible things!
Nobody can help. No one. Not now.
ChocoGurl signing off,
``xoxo.
